The Greatest thing you'll ever learn is. .

I don’t know what it is to tell you the truth. I normally wouldn’t fall so fast for someone, especially after coming out of an inconsistent 3 year relationship with someone I thought I’d be with “forever.” Things change, I get that.

Fuck it. It’s two in the morning and my thoughts are blurred. In short, I adore Kevin to the fullest extent. I can’t even explain why or what it is about him. All I know for sure is, he makes my life 100 times better than it’s been. I could give a fuck if you, yes just YOU, think it’s too fast, I can’t help the way I feel.

“Now everybody asks me why I’m smiling out from ear to eaaaaaar!”

Seriously though, I have it really great. Like I’ve said before, the people you consider your significant other should just be an addition to your own happiness, not the WHOLE reason you’re happy. You have to be happy for yourself before you’re happy for anyone else!

And I’m like.. extremely happy. EEEEEEEEEE

I try my best not to be all about relationships but they always show up in different forms. It’s always at the time I LEAST expect it to happen. I do have my priorities but honestly, nothing is better than waking up next to someone you care about too much to even think straight. UGH. I’m so happy but I’m supposed to be so focused. I have 16 units to take care of at school (= and I’m so stoked to start school after a year and a half. I can’t slack off anymore! My top priorities include in no particular order: my car, my family, my grades and Kev ^__^I guess that’s how I’ll differentiate right now.. he shouldn’t even be a priority but I honestly can’t help myself. This is ridiculous. Who feels like this?! AND NOTHING IS BETTER THAN HAVING NEAR AND DEAR ONES APPROVE OF WHO YOU ARE INTERESTED IN. A relationship really is kept between two people but doesn’t it feel a million times better when everyone is okay with your significant other?! Tell me that’s not one of the best feelings in your life: when everyone approves of the person you’re dating. There hasn’t been one person I’ve told about this that has disapproved. I’ve known this fucker since I was 11. I lost touch with him for 5 years and when we’ve hung out it’s like nothing’s changed. We’re still stupid around each other. He accepts where I work and he accepts what I’m going through. I still have that respect for Kevin. I was lying to myself I think. I kept telling myself it was because I didn’t want a boyfriend, I didn’t feel the same, I didn’t have time for one, but the truth is I just got tired of the same routine. Arguing. Throwing shit at each other. Being mad all the time. Who wants to feel like that ALL the time? Change is fucking great. As I get older, I begin to accept it more instant than I would’ve before. I don’t need another body to make me happy because I know I can do everything by myself. I’ve stated countless times that I pretty much do do everything on my own, and that’s also one of the best feelings ^__^ knowing that you don’t have to rely on anyone but yourself, because at the end of the day, that’s all that really matters. This blog was supposed to be about Kev. But.Fuck. I’m too happy right now. I love this.

I just hope that WHEN/(if) we move more forward and more slow that this feeling won’t go away. ALKSJFALSFJLAKSJFKLAJ ^__________^ I deserve this. 

I honestly, for the sake of myself and Tumblr, am going to keep track of my best days ever from now on. It’s been nearly 20 years that I can’t say I had a best day in this specific year. I’ll let you know in a year or so what my best and worst days were of 2012.

I ended the more serious one out of the two I’ve ever had. You shouldn’t hurt yourself over someone else. It’s finally like.. done. I’m happy with that. No more arguing, no more thinking in the back of my head WHAT IF, no more doubting, just looking straight forward. Not even thinking about future plans but living day by day. I said it’d be a while for my next one, not like I have a time plan or anything but people tend to pop up out of nowhere when you don’t want them to. I can’t resist though. I’ve stayed close to this guy for about a year til high school started, we lost touch and finally reconnected a couple weeks back. I love how it’s going. I just need to remember I can’t focus ALL my attention on them.

Relationships with friends will always be the same: some leave some stay some don’t put in any fucking effort buuuuuut it’ll always be their loss, not mine (= I don’t give a fuck, I’m 90% positive I could be the best friend you’ve ever had. For some odd reasons I can’t keep a consistent best friend. It’s fine though, the relationship I have with myself is all that really matters to me. Wait, family has been a bit stronger since my dad has been more happy. That’s all

I always forget what I do on New Years. Finally hanging out with Tommy (after 3 years) and getting close to Jason. Kevin. Kevin for the first/middle time of the year. Giants games. AAAA Warrior’s game. San Diego/LA. Disneyland. Unexpected drunken nights. Cameron and I finally at peace with each other. Working at coffee shops. Having over 4000 doll hairs in my hands that I worked hard for. Still not getting a car, or saving up enough for that down payment. Getting closer to another group of boys. Finally letting go of everything that’s made me more mad than happy. I really need to differentiate Kevin and Kevin. Ex boyfriend and.. Kevin NOW. lol. Uhm.. yeah Kevin. Ikea. Mine and Stephen’s similar problems.  Piercings. I don’t know.

I always have the best time downloading music at this time of night. I don’t know why.

I can’t wait to compile my semi-grown up to do list. Vegas, Paris, parachuting, hot air ballooning, sky diving extravagant adventures.

I should buy a new camera soon.

I CAN’T FUCKING WAIT FOR SCHOOL!

I’m the laggiest person ever in the world right now.

I scored like a 30 on my math placement test. No fuck given though, I got 98 in English HAHAHAHA

No matter what mood Gloria and I are in, Set Fire To The Rain is always a great song to listen to. It’s my personal favorite by Adele. Even thoughI don’t know what the real meaning is.

I still need to go Christmas shopping.

I work Christmas Eve morning, it’s also Kevin’s birthday and meh.

MEH!

I work Christmas Day too.

I really should send these Christmas cards out. LOL

98.5 has grown on me the last couple of nights..

I still hate sleeping alone

I need to buy my damn bed already

My money is finally piling back up. FINALLY

The things I need that are most expensive are a car, contacts, a bed and braces. BB CC lol

I’m so excited for next year.

I don’t know. I said I Wouldn’t get involved with other people, they just come in at the wrong times

To this day I still don’t know what to say to you. I”m not even mad. I’m just at a loss for words after all the shit we put each other through. . ? See?!

I’ve got someone in my life who’s understanding. I like that.

AHHH I can’t wait to repaint my room either!

I wish there weren’t so many Kevin’s in my life. I’ve got a current one, an ex, and a shit load of close friends named Kevin. Well, Saldivar and Legarda. haha

Nu nu number one. Sex. That I’m. Having.Here, girl. ooh.

I LOVE OLD MUSIC

Oldies especially. Yay.

Am I hella late or is IT’S IN THE MORNING a sexy ass song. HAHAHAHA

Anyway. I’m pretty tired.

I have work in a couple hours. Hooray

These beats are hurting my ears =(

I think I”m done.

tituslagman:

riannecg:

Day 1: A few things you will never forget in 2011.
Day 2: Relationship(s).
Day 3: The best day.
Day 4: The worst day. 
Day 5: The most memorable moment.
Day 6: Your best friend(s).
Day 7: Your birthday.
Day 8: The funnest getaway.
Day 9: The end of last school year/the beginning of this one.
Day 10: New Year resolutions.

I don’t see why not :)

The first pictures is like.. “ain’t nothin to a boss.” LOL

Anyway this boy is probably the worst distraction of my life. Before what had happened was, he’d make me laugh so fucking much I’d get sent outside -___- sometimes he would too but because we had the best inside jokes of life. Seriously. I wrote them all down in my dumbass journal and they’re not even funny anymore! LOL and until now, he still doesn’t let me get my shit done. We just do nothing.

I know what you’re thinking. He’s actually understanding of my current “situation” and I couldn’t be any happier about that. Thank Heysoos Christ for the minimum amount of understanding people in this world.

I really really love this kid.