I didn’t have the greatest time on my “time away” because for ONE, someone thought it was okay to use MY camera and MY flipcam and act like THEY owned it. I really wish my dumbass didn’t click the wrong button on that flipcam so you could’ve seen what I was told, “I vlog too much” when the flipcam was in MY hands like twice. If you’re going to go on vacation please don’t mooch off your friends, FRIENDS don’t fucking do that to each other. If you want ALL the attention on you and if you want ALL the pictures to be OF you please bring your own stuff, that’s the only valid time you can be like that. Nothing makes me more pissed off than people who pick on my food without asking (which nobody did, just in general) and people who are inconsiderate as shit. I normally can take a joke let alone MANY jokes but if you’re going to pick on me the whole fucking time, seriously tell me what the fuck did I do to you? Did I hurt your feelings when I was an inconsiderate ass and treated you out to eat TWICE BEFORE WE EVEN WENT ON VACATION? This I actually did, and had no problem doing because I thought I was treating my FRIEND out. Did I hurt your feelings when I ran to the couch when it was offered to ALL 3 OF US and I didn’t even ask the GIRLS of the trip if they wanted it? Did I hurt your feelings when I constantly made fun of you for not getting your license? OR DID I HURT YOUR FEELINGS WHEN I ROLLED DOWN THE WINDOWS WHILE YOU TWO WERE SICK? Oh wait, THAT WASN’T ME. The fucking money thing dude. I’m honestly not going into detail about that because I KNOW I’ll be more fucking pissed off than I am right now. And I know for a fact that I’m not the only one that feels this way.
To say the least I actually take EVERYONE’S feelings into account when shit like this happens because I was raised to be that way. I was also raised to not be greedy with my money, which I know for damn sure I’m not. The only thing I can think of that I did wrong was not bring cash with me. l’ll never be selfish unless you act that way toward me, ask ANYONE, I’ll fucking pay for their shit with no problem AS LONG AS THERE’S A MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING OF ONE ANOTHER. Holy shit I feel a lot better. Good job.
Anyway, since I’m getting everything off my chest I might as well speak about this. One time in 2009 Kevin broke up with me FOR SERIOUS and I was outside crying like a little bitch and I’d even do so much as hold onto the dumbass car as it was moving because I believed in us to work. He basically told me that I was a possessive person and that he was going back to celebrate at his house with his friends for being a “single guy” again. In the heat of that moment I couldn’t take it, his friend had to hold me outside from fucking shaking and crying so much. The same thing DID NOT happen last night like Daniel’d said. Kevin got dropped off to my house drunk off his ass and I told ALL of them I can’t see him like this. I can’t see him like that because he’s drunk and we’re not even together. Honestly, my feelings are just gone. If I REALLY loved him like he thinks or says I do I would have done things differently recently or not at all. You can’t force someone to be with you and you can’t push them to think that it’ll be just like before. When you have something you fucking treat them like they’re going to die the next day, because you never know when shit will hit the fucking fan. That’s my promise to whoever I’m with in the future, I’ll fucking treat them as if they’d die the next day. I feel like he should be grateful that I’m even trying to be there for him but since I’m not his girlfriend through all this, it’s not acceptable. That’s another type of person I don’t like, someone ungrateful. Not saying I’m the best fucking thing in the whole wide world but if I’m going to be there for you after you after all the shit I went through, you might as well just take it and not argue with me.
My life is a little fucked up right now. I don’t mean to lose anyone but if we butt heads way too much might as well leave it as.. that? I don’t know, my train of thought it lost now. Oh well I do feel a little better.
