I am fucking tired.
Every day since I’ve had this piercing in my tongue I’ve been waking up in a pool of drool. And HELLA fucking early too.
I should go back to the gym. I miss the v shaped things I don’t remember what they’re called. Lol and my abdominals.
I’ve gone from a size 1 to a 5 in the last year. For pants.
I’d rather live a life where I can say I’ve done that before rather than think about having done something stupid. Like getting my tongue pierced.
I do things out of impulse.
I’ve always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance. Up until now I had sworn to myself that I’m content with loneliness. THIS. RIGHT HERE. IS MY. FUCKIN LIFE.
I’m pretty sad that I don’t have stable people in my life. Like.. I wanna cry right now. LOL I’m used to it, but I’m so fucking giving its not even funny. I’m gonna cry -__- damnit
Like.. is there something wrong with me?
I always get people together thinking I’ll be included at least but they link up and forget about me.
I’m like.. really crying. Haha. Fuck man
I even bought Christmas cards thinking I’d be giving them out to near and dear ones but there honestly are none.
I initiate things first. Why do I always have to be the one left contemplating even though I did nothing wrong?
I was in the mood earlier to sleep, now I’m just upset with myself. Good job me.
All the money I had saved up for my car ended up going to things I wanted to.get for people. Well not all, but like 60% of it.
I can’t spend anything anymore, nothing is worth feeling the rush of driving in your own car.
I still don’t even know what I want.
Whenever I bought Kevin something big I always had to return it, because we broke up in the midst of me giving it to him.
I need to return that ps3. Or sell it to someone tomorrow. Doubt it.
I’m really over relationships like that. I don’t want to make up and break up
I want a relationship that I can benefit from. Not be fucking angry all the time. I want a relationship with someone who has friends I CAN BE FRIENDS WITH, not feel uncomfortable with. Also someone who has friends that are NOT biased. That’s all I ever got from that relationship. No one of them even had the balls to tell me “its none of my business” but just leave me hanging. People are fucking stupid.
He complains about not having friends or anyone when that’s actually ME, why the fuck don’t people see what they have WHILE they HAVE HAD it?
I want a boyfriend who will act his fucking age.
Damn. Hate all around, I’m trying to be sad if anything, not even mad.
Wel anyway I don’t even want a boyfriend right now, I kind of want a chase. Haven’t.had one in a while
I payed for my classes too which makes me broker.
I alwys feel better when I use this website.
That or I’m just getting my dot soon, causing over emotional emotions. Lol
My tongue is bleeding.
This thing has its pros and Cons. Pros, being I stopped smoking ciggys, I don’t eat unhealthy ass food, I’m more careful with everything I insert in my mouth. The cons are.. I was gonna get braces, and I fucking love food. Next shall be my secnd nape.
I’m pretty fucking cold.
You know what’s sad is the only person I see on a weekly basis is Cameron. Except not this week. Too lazy to talk to anyone who texts me
I get work in the morning so I can save faster.
I got a new phone. And a New laptop on its way.
I have no excuse NOT to save money forreal now.
I’m so happy school will be in my life again this day next month.
It’s nice not to use your parents for money when you can afford things yourself.
My eyes hurt. From the white screen and uhm.. crying
I love my coworkers.
Alright.. think that’s all.
