I try my best not to be all about relationships but they always show up in different forms. It’s always at the time I LEAST expect it to happen. I do have my priorities but honestly, nothing is better than waking up next to someone you care about too much to even think straight. UGH. I’m so happy but I’m supposed to be so focused. I have 16 units to take care of at school (= and I’m so stoked to start school after a year and a half. I can’t slack off anymore! My top priorities include in no particular order: my car, my family, my grades and Kev ^__^I guess that’s how I’ll differentiate right now.. he shouldn’t even be a priority but I honestly can’t help myself. This is ridiculous. Who feels like this?! AND NOTHING IS BETTER THAN HAVING NEAR AND DEAR ONES APPROVE OF WHO YOU ARE INTERESTED IN. A relationship really is kept between two people but doesn’t it feel a million times better when everyone is okay with your significant other?! Tell me that’s not one of the best feelings in your life: when everyone approves of the person you’re dating. There hasn’t been one person I’ve told about this that has disapproved. I’ve known this fucker since I was 11. I lost touch with him for 5 years and when we’ve hung out it’s like nothing’s changed. We’re still stupid around each other. He accepts where I work and he accepts what I’m going through. I still have that respect for Kevin. I was lying to myself I think. I kept telling myself it was because I didn’t want a boyfriend, I didn’t feel the same, I didn’t have time for one, but the truth is I just got tired of the same routine. Arguing. Throwing shit at each other. Being mad all the time. Who wants to feel like that ALL the time? Change is fucking great. As I get older, I begin to accept it more instant than I would’ve before. I don’t need another body to make me happy because I know I can do everything by myself. I’ve stated countless times that I pretty much do do everything on my own, and that’s also one of the best feelings ^__^ knowing that you don’t have to rely on anyone but yourself, because at the end of the day, that’s all that really matters. This blog was supposed to be about Kev. But.Fuck. I’m too happy right now. I love this.
I just hope that WHEN/(if) we move more forward and more slow that this feeling won’t go away. ALKSJFALSFJLAKSJFKLAJ ^__________^ I deserve this.
